Joshua |&| Leanne

Real shit..

Now I’m not talking money
When I say you using me
But I’m sick and tired
Of trying fight for how it used to be
Used to be beautifully
But now we gone our separate ways
But we still together so we argue almost everyday
How can we make it work if you don’t wanna make it right
And why be together if you don’t want to make it life
Was it lies or was it just because we grown apart

You had my heart but relationships are known to fall
I’m trying to be your all
Be your friend
Be yo man
Deal with all yo drama
At the same time be a man
I understand what it takes for a relationship
That’s why I’m worried that you can’t handle the basic shit
Damn, I hope this wasn’t all on purpose
I feel I do the right shit for the wrong person
So keep it real and let me know what’s going on
Or let me go, or let me know, you want to keep this going on
See at first we both had trust issues
But dammit it’s been months
I put my trust in you
I can’t put it no other way
I fuck with you
But now-a-days, I don’t really see much in you
Cause it’s more then being beautiful and texting
I need communication, I need affection
Sextin’, direction, advise when I be stressin’
A blessin’, answer to my questions
I miss the old love, the old way, the old you
Because this new attitude, is old news
I know yo old dude, couldn’t manage, but dammit
I can’t understand if your okay with being damaged
I really wanna make this work
But I don’t know how
Cause instead of being grown, we let our anger show out
Let’s take control now
Out of sight, out of mind, out of line
Speak now because we don’t got a lot of time
See, you say you love me, but I do not believe you
If I wanted to be alone, then I would be single
So be wrong, or be gone
Cause this shit that we on
Got us going back and forward like ping pong
And I’m not feeling it
Can’t you see that were crashing
We’re missing emotion
We’re missing passion
We got that high school love, this shit is average
And baby girl I’m not about to have it
I’m tired of trying, to make it work
When it ain’t working
I don’t want that common love
That’s only good in person
Can’t you see I’m hurting from the person that you made me
How can we fix it if we argue about the same shit
Appreciate the love that we both came with
But how far are we willing to let this pain get
Shit, I ain’t trying to say that you wrong
But if you don’t want this let me move on
Real shit..

I don’t even know where to start this or even go with it, I know you may never see this but here it is. I tried to keep my head up, tried to move forward and tried to keep all of my promises. I thought the move would help, it just showed me how lonely my world really is. I miss that smile, those eyes, that laugh, your touch, your smell and even your hair (can’t get it out of my tiger/tmnt blankets, no matter how hard I try). The moment I watched you drive away, you took my heart and I died that night. The only reason I’m still here today is because of the promises we made to each other. I realize you’re never coming back and I honestly can’t accept that. I’ll always look after you, I’ll always believe in you and I’ll always love you. I’m just sorry I won’t be here to protect you anymore or even be here if you ever decide to look for me. Never let anyone say you can’t do something, even yourself. I’ll play Bobby Tinsley’s “When I Found You”, Zack Crawford’s “My Angel” and Jason Chen’s “Best Friend” one more time to remember it all again for one last smile. As much as it hurts, I knew you too good for me. You showed me love and happiness for the first and last time in my life. With all of this said, it’s my time to go see old friends.